I'm sitting in the computer lab, waiting for my final class of the semester to start, when I find myself completely and utterly overwhelmed. I see the future and it seems so far away, all I can think about it my next week, my next week of stress, little sleep and unassurance of my success. All I want to do is be done with school and doing what my heart yearns for, to be working in youth ministry molding the minds of our future generation. Yet I cannot get there without the tools and knowledge in how to do that effectively. It seems like a cycle that there is no way out of. I was sitting in my last class praying that God would somehow show me the fast track and yet still receive the knowledge I would get through a degree. I'm not sure how I will make it through this. Maybe it's because I'm overwhelmed, maybe it's me being lazy and not wanting to do the work, maybe it's me not always seeing the complete importance of this time, but all I know is that God is silent...meaning, He has me here to finish. I want to cry. I want to sit down and forget that exams start next week. I just want to be done. Only 5ish more semesters. ONLY. It still seems like a long time.
